Monday, April 30, 2012

Master Cleanse

Today I am beginning the Master Cleanse.  I am going to commit to three days and re-evaluate that that point.  This will put me on about 600 calories a day, so I'm not going to push it with too much exercise.  I just need to clean out my body and mind and refocus on what my goals really are in life, in health, and in career.

I weighed in yesterday at 215.2.  I've officially lost 20 lbs down from my top weight.  Win.  :)




PS-- If you click the link, it goes to the middle of the article where the cleanse recipe is.  I recommend reading the whole article.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

216.2

Woot!  Jesse gained weight this week and is feeling down.  Off to try to motivate him.

Also-- I had a dream last night that I ran a non-profit organization that gave out grants of sex.  Our mission was "to enhance lives my providing sexual satisfaction for those in need."  Ha!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Ups and Downs

This week has been a challenging one and one that is full of anxiety.  The situation at the theatre is nebulous at best and bleak at worst.  Waiting on owed pay is no picnic.  Then I found out Tuesday that the teacher who replaced me is on paid leave pending a public hearing.



My first reaction was tremendous sorrow for her.  My second reaction was... "So that position might be open?"  I called the office to find out that they had already secured a long-term sub.  Then I offered to volunteer to help put together a play with the kids in this short amount of time.  Politely refused.  They've planned another activity with the kids, which is wonderful.  Lesser admins would have just canceled the show.  Wonderful admins is one of the things that made leaving such a hard decision for me.  As it turns out, I made the wrong decision.  I've emailed the appropriate people and filed the appropriate paperwork to reapply for the job or any other job in the county.  Now it's a waiting game.

Waiting is so hard.

I feel like I have done a lot of waiting over the course of my life, thinking, "When THIS happens, everything will be ok," and sometimes when the thing happens, everything is ok for a bit.  Then I fixate on some other point in the future.  I had all but let go of getting back into the county until this news this week.  When I was talking with Jesse about it, I kept listing off the things that would make our life sooooo much better if I was rehired in CCPS.  He agreed with everything and said that he wishes I had never left.  He's a wonderfully supportive man who wants me to be happy.  The decision to leave was what I wanted at the time and he supported me.  If I wanted to fly to the moon he'd probably say, "Can we afford it?"  :)  In fact, I told him that my life goal was to visit every continent and he looked up cruises to Antarctica.  $7000 each.  No, we can't afford it.  ;)

So here we are.  I'm feeling thinner, which is cool, but feeling way more stress, which is not cool.  One fun thing that I noticed this morning... my feet look skinnier.  Win.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

218.2

I can't believe I lost anything this week, much less nearly 2 lbs.  I ate very poorly, was entirely stressed out by the goings on at the theatre and only ran 3 times.  I've been trying to run every other day and walk on the off days, but I think I might be able to just run every day.  Does anyone have experience with this?  I mean... don't get me wrong... I'm still doing intervals, so it's not like I'm running more than 90 second at a time.

Jesse and I also discussed this week the benefits of Weight Watchers. I was thinking of joining for the two month in the package, but I'm not sure.  A few folks recommended My Fitness Pal, but I don't know much about it.  Input welcome!

Thursday night was the worst for the eating... between the three of us, Jesse Margot and I ate three corndogs, fries, a funnel cake, a beer, two diet cokes, a hotdog and a bag of peanuts.  Good lord it was delicious, but probably not worth the calories.  It was worth her royal cuteness though...



Monday, April 9, 2012

Surprising Loss

220.1

After having eaten poorly this week and only run twice, I see this as a win for losing at all.

Saturday was especially interesting.  Not only did I have to pay attention to what I was eating, I have a $10 spending limit for food and I was traveling to, from and in NYC.  I was kinda smart about it and brought along an apple, a pear, some baby bell light cheese wheels, and granola (which I didn't even eat).  I also had great seat-mates who kept me laughing the whole 13+ hour trip, so I must have been burning some calories while sitting still.  I ended up eating a stromboli and a quesadilla in addition to the snacks, so I didn't really do too badly.  I drank only water, but did smoke a few.

I also got to see A Streetcar Named Desire and be part of a photo shoot where old women elbowed me out of the way to get close to Blair Underwood.  For folks who don't know, Sycamore Rouge is located in Petersburg, hometown of Mr. Underwood.  His dad, Frank, is on our Board of directors and I'm good friends with his brother, Frank Jr.  This trip was coordinated as a "Petersburg Pride" day.  We all have on red t-shirts.  :)
As you can see, my face barely makes it in (see that one white girl on the left?) due to the insane old woman love of Blair.  You should know that the was so pressed up against the woman in front of me that Blair's arm was resting on my bosoms.  A good day.  :)

Monday, April 2, 2012

I Won!

I won this week's weigh-in on Richmond Mommies!  I'm so proud of myself!





...... I won't think about what I ate yesterday......