19 Months

My angel girls is 19 months old today.

That picture is from yesterday when we went to Yorktown Beach for a few hours.  It was a lovely Mother's Day.  I'll take experiences over things as gifts any day!

To add to my joy, I'm now at 211.6.  :)

Gained 3 lbs in ONE DAY

Yes, folks, it can be done.  I weighed in at 211 yesterday morning and this morning I weighed in at 214.

Kill me.

Here is the culprit:

"Bubbles?" you may be asking yourself.  Yes, bubbles.  Actually the orange icing there and the cake inside the bubbles are what killed me yesterday.  I went to Conor's birthday party and I had saved up calories during the day so I would have some cake, but I lost control and ate and ate and ate and ate....
-- guacamole, a solid CUP, it had to be and with tortilla chips-- a lot of them
-- 2 hotdogs, relish, ketchup, one bun
-- 2 slices of that cake.  (I did have icing left on my plate, but that's because I was scared of diabetic coma, had I eaten all that sugar.)
--2 bowls of fruit salad
-- a bottle of David's homemade beer
--a scoop of potato salad
-- and NO exercise (thank you, rain)

I had such a good week, too.  I'm really upset about the sudden gain.  It did allow for a loss over the course of the week, but I was rough on myself during my run this morning and the subsequent core work-out.

The coming week will be better.

Too Much Cayenne

That's how I failed the Master Cleanse.  After talking with a friend today who did it without the cayenne, I may try it again.  I may not.  I took the first sip and was blown away by the overpowering spice, then decided to chug the bottle and almost vomited.  Gah.

I got back onto my jogging bandwagon.  Tried to do it yesterday but the stroller proved too much for the 5 minute run.  I went out this morning alone and was successful.

I also discovered today that the Kirkland's Fruit and Nut Medley has 140 calories per 1/4 cup.  I ate at least 2 cups of it tonight, which was almost my entire day's calories, but since I had all this exercise today it balances according to My Fitness Pal.  I think I may pre-bag up the fruit/nut goodness to avoid said catastrophe again.

In other news, I think my brother told me today that I was looking hot.  Win.

Master Cleanse

Today I am beginning the Master Cleanse.  I am going to commit to three days and re-evaluate that that point.  This will put me on about 600 calories a day, so I'm not going to push it with too much exercise.  I just need to clean out my body and mind and refocus on what my goals really are in life, in health, and in career.

I weighed in yesterday at 215.2.  I've officially lost 20 lbs down from my top weight.  Win.  :)




PS-- If you click the link, it goes to the middle of the article where the cleanse recipe is.  I recommend reading the whole article.

216.2

Woot!  Jesse gained weight this week and is feeling down.  Off to try to motivate him.

Also-- I had a dream last night that I ran a non-profit organization that gave out grants of sex.  Our mission was "to enhance lives my providing sexual satisfaction for those in need."  Ha!

Ups and Downs

This week has been a challenging one and one that is full of anxiety.  The situation at the theatre is nebulous at best and bleak at worst.  Waiting on owed pay is no picnic.  Then I found out Tuesday that the teacher who replaced me is on paid leave pending a public hearing.

My first reaction was tremendous sorrow for her.  My second reaction was... "So that position might be open?"  I called the office to find out that they had already secured a long-term sub.  Then I offered to volunteer to help put together a play with the kids in this short amount of time.  Politely refused.  They've planned another activity with the kids, which is wonderful.  Lesser admins would have just canceled the show.  Wonderful admins is one of the things that made leaving such a hard decision for me.  As it turns out, I made the wrong decision.  I've emailed the appropriate people and filed the appropriate paperwork to reapply for the job or any other job in the county.  Now it's a waiting game.

Waiting is so hard.

I feel like I have done a lot of waiting over the course of my life, thinking, "When THIS happens, everything will be ok," and sometimes when the thing happens, everything is ok for a bit.  Then I fixate on some other point in the future.  I had all but let go of getting back into the county until this news this week.  When I was talking with Jesse about it, I kept listing off the things that would make our life sooooo much better if I was rehired in CCPS.  He agreed with everything and said that he wishes I had never left.  He's a wonderfully supportive man who wants me to be happy.  The decision to leave was what I wanted at the time and he supported me.  If I wanted to fly to the moon he'd probably say, "Can we afford it?"  :)  In fact, I told him that my life goal was to visit every continent and he looked up cruises to Antarctica.  $7000 each.  No, we can't afford it.  ;)

So here we are.  I'm feeling thinner, which is cool, but feeling way more stress, which is not cool.  One fun thing that I noticed this morning... my feet look skinnier.  Win.

218.2

I can't believe I lost anything this week, much less nearly 2 lbs.  I ate very poorly, was entirely stressed out by the goings on at the theatre and only ran 3 times.  I've been trying to run every other day and walk on the off days, but I think I might be able to just run every day.  Does anyone have experience with this?  I mean... don't get me wrong... I'm still doing intervals, so it's not like I'm running more than 90 second at a time.

Jesse and I also discussed this week the benefits of Weight Watchers. I was thinking of joining for the two month in the package, but I'm not sure.  A few folks recommended My Fitness Pal, but I don't know much about it.  Input welcome!

Thursday night was the worst for the eating... between the three of us, Jesse Margot and I ate three corndogs, fries, a funnel cake, a beer, two diet cokes, a hotdog and a bag of peanuts.  Good lord it was delicious, but probably not worth the calories.  It was worth her royal cuteness though...