if...

... there is a heaven, I'd like to think that Ed McMahon and Farrah Faucett are looking at Michael Jackson and saying, "WTF?"

Here are my true and honest feelings about today's sadness.

1. Michael Jackson was a pop icon. He was also a pedaphile. It's hard to separate one's genius and talent from one's actions as an adult and him naming his kid Prince Blanket.

2. Farrah Faucett seems to be relatively crime-free. Her son, however, is another story. Suffice it to say that I'm more sad for the fact that poor Farrah won't get her day in the sun because the world is going to erupt with an MJ lovefest... in 10 minutes.

3. Jesse said that the real mourning should be for Ed. He was a veteran and decorated pilot. he provided us years of entertainment with such shows as The Tonight Show and Star Search.

4. Lastly, death is just sad. Sometimes I think the BEST part about people having religion is not having to think about NOT existing. I'm terrified of death. You'd think that would make me become more healthy...

Anniversaried

Today (yesterday technically) Jesse and I celebrated our 2nd married anniversary. Our friend Melvin said that he though we'd been married forever and in a sense, we have. We've been together and committed to each other since 2003. Can you believe it?

Our relationship actually developed while I was in London and he was still back home in the states. We e-mailed regularly and sent letters while I was there for the summer and fell in lurve... aww. Big J and I have been through some rough patches these few years and I'm so proud of how we've grown together instead of apart. I'm taking a cue from my friend Cho Mama (who is also celebrating her anniversary today!) and offering this quote that I like about marriage:

"To get the full value of joy, you must have someone to divide it with." ~Mark Twain

Thank you Jesse for sharing in my joy. We went to our friends' wedding this weekend and the pastor, who was my youth pastor as a kid, said this:

"When you become married, your joys are doubled and your sorrows are halved."

Thank you Jesse for doubling my joy and halfing my sorrow.

I love you. Happy Anniversary.

i love my job

Not even kidding. I'm not talking about my "day-job," I'm talking about my chosen profession of theatre. Holy crap was today's rehearsal such a breath of fresh air in my stagnant world lately. We were all questioned as our characters by the director and everyone in the room about everything. It was awesome to BE in those imaginary circumstances. I can't express the exhilaration!

Also-- today:

228lbs

40.38 BMI

Yikes. Every day is a new day.

Good News

... I did NOT stop at McDonald's for breakfast. Baby steps.

Update

Was measured last night for my new show.

Hate myself again.

Summer is coming. Free time to be selfish and focus on me.

Zing.

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