Glee

Every now and then I find something that moves me to obsession.

When I was a teenager, it was Hanson.

Then in college, Dave Matthews Band.

It's been a long time since I was in love with piece of pop culture and I resisted Glee for a long time.  I don't know what episode I watched one time, but I was annoyed, so I never paid attention, even when they made headlines.

So... Margot grabs hold of the PS3 controller, which is how we watch Netflix, and clicks random buttons all the time.  A week or so ago, she landed on Glee and I cried during the first episode and I was hooked.  Jane Lynch is a comedic genius and everyone else is just pretty and sings and dances and who doesn't love that?!

One thing that I've rediscovered about myself is how much music can move me to another place altogether.  Sometimes just the first few notes of a song can make me start weeping.  Hymns from my childhood have the effect on me and do many love songs.  I'm going to just own this and not be shamed by my easy tears.  :)

Easy to laugh, easy to cry.

Also-- this is my new celebrity crush.

Another Let Down

A received three more refusal emails today.  One of them was the last theatre job that is open within 50 miles, so my teaching hopes for next year are nil.  God, this sucks.

Color Me Rad

On Saturday, I completed my first "run".  It was Color Me Rad and though is was not actually a 5k, it was fun.  I had such a feeling of success and joy when I was done.  I'm a little disappointed that it was not 5k, because I thought I had an amazing run time, but I'm running a REAL 5k next Saturday to make up for it.  Here are some pictures!

Before... 7am

  

After... 10am

   

Start line.  My phone was in a ziplock.

I wore my crappy shoes, so my feet were killing me after.  When I took my shoes off...

I don't know why, but I LOVE this picture.

In other news, I'm back under 200.  199.3.

Laziness = Failure

Well, not always.  Sometimes my laziness creates extreme efficiency and I get a ton done so that I can be as lazy as possible later. But right now, I'm failing because I don't plan ahead and I'm lazy.

Today Margot and I went to the Hanover Tomato Festival.  I was planning in sharing something to eat with Margot while we were there and then chugging water.  That reminds me...

Ok, I'm back.  I haven't had anything to drink in hours.  Lazy.

Anyway, I didn't think ahead to the fact that instead of spending money, I could bring our own food, nor did I think ahead that fair vendors are not going to take plastic and that a small local fair won't rent an ATM machine.  So what ended up happening is that Margot had some snacks from a churchy group and my sugar got low.  Also, since I had spent the morning chugging water, I had to pee, but there was no way to do so.  Port-o-potties are not exactly toddler friendly.    In the end, we walked around and looked at stuff, I got this awesome sign:

More info:   http://www.powellforva.com/

and we left.  When we left, I was anxious to find somewhere we could eat and use the bathroom.  Pole Green Rd, which turns into Meadowbridge Rd has NOTHING on it.  We finally hit a McDonald's at Laburnum.  It was gross.  I ate more than the whole day's worth of calories in one sitting, but I couldn't make myself stop until I stopped shaking from the low blood sugar.  ALL of these problems could have been avoided if I had just planned ahead. 

1785 calories in one sitting.  No wonder...

I’ve also been failing at forcing Jesse to eat well.  We ate out twice yesterday and it was because: 1.)  I hate cooking. 2.) Jesse didn’t feel like cooking. 3.) I wanted to give Jesse what he wanted.  So yesterday I solicited a promise to go for a walk after dinner tonight but with the weather like it is, I doubt that will happen.  I just feel defeated.  I broke through 200, only to jump right back up when I hadn't been yo-yo-ing at all.  Every single week I was consistently losing weight.  


What's wrong with me?  


Why won't I let myself succeed?

Little of Importance

I've been struggling these past few weeks with my unemployment and a feeling of general unrest and dissatisfaction.  This leads to eating three bowls of Cherrios.  How do you handle this?

Vacation Sabotage

I gained five pounds on vacation and they were all from drinking.  I've been punished with being fat and with a hell of a hang-over on the way home today.  Ugh.  Back on the wagon tomorrow.

In other news... I am now one of those iPhone people.