My first reaction was tremendous sorrow for her. My second reaction was... "So that position might be open?" I called the office to find out that they had already secured a long-term sub. Then I offered to volunteer to help put together a play with the kids in this short amount of time. Politely refused. They've planned another activity with the kids, which is wonderful. Lesser admins would have just canceled the show. Wonderful admins is one of the things that made leaving such a hard decision for me. As it turns out, I made the wrong decision. I've emailed the appropriate people and filed the appropriate paperwork to reapply for the job or any other job in the county. Now it's a waiting game.
Waiting is so hard.
I feel like I have done a lot of waiting over the course of my life, thinking, "When THIS happens, everything will be ok," and sometimes when the thing happens, everything is ok for a bit. Then I fixate on some other point in the future. I had all but let go of getting back into the county until this news this week. When I was talking with Jesse about it, I kept listing off the things that would make our life sooooo much better if I was rehired in CCPS. He agreed with everything and said that he wishes I had never left. He's a wonderfully supportive man who wants me to be happy. The decision to leave was what I wanted at the time and he supported me. If I wanted to fly to the moon he'd probably say, "Can we afford it?" :) In fact, I told him that my life goal was to visit every continent and he looked up cruises to Antarctica. $7000 each. No, we can't afford it. ;)
So here we are. I'm feeling thinner, which is cool, but feeling way more stress, which is not cool. One fun thing that I noticed this morning... my feet look skinnier. Win.
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